Talk to me. I need to hear from you only.

I get the breast pain, it makes me nervous, then I read that seems like something other than cancer, but I don't know. I need help from ...

The movie rolled into a WWll story as a flash back explaining the lead character's PTSD.

I don't understand the breast pain.

The characters in the movie are kissing on the beach. I haven't kissed anyone forwell over 20 years, beach, or elsewhere.  It has to be ...

Watching, "The Railway Man" with Colin Firth and Nicole Kidman. So far, it seems sweet, timid, even. I like that.

I am going to make lox in scrambled eggs. Yumm!

I wanted to get more sleep, but my dog co-opted my sleeping area. Right now, she's fluffing my pillow....

Missing you.

I will make banana bread with the old bananas. (Can you stand the excitement?!)

I finally have enough apples to make a pie! I will use the peels and core for apple cider vinegar.

I keep going to sleep very late and waking up too early.

I have trouble sleeping.

I was fingerprinted and had a mugshot taken. Nice, huh?

Listening to Coldplay. It will always make me think of walking on the trail.

"But, nothing's too broken to find a way back...." ~"Fun" Coldplay

I am scared. You should be able to be here so I have someone I trust. Even if nothing else, at least I could have that after all the sufferi...

"Sometimes when I look deep into your eyes, I swear I can see into your soul" ~James

"It's the heart that matters more...."~ Counting Crows

I'd like to kick the balls out of restrictions and conventional crap!

YES!

I was always was so restrained......my heart was going crazy, but I was restrained.

I got the new med to take.

You are not alone. Take strength from that.

I don't understand why they are trying so hard to say I have cancer. I don't know if they realize that what they say to me doesn...

My dog had a tick on her head.....barf!

My mother went to EST and I was a member of the Hunger Project Werner Erhard and Est The Legacy of Transformation Blog About ...

"Sometimes the hard times won't leave me alone......"

Listening to John Denver, my go to music when I need to both cheer up and feel wistful. Makes me feel nostalgic and missing you. I love yo...

I made a great tuna cake last night for dinner. It was big enough for me to save 1/2 for dinner today. It was just cheapie tuna, but it tast...

I am watching a guy on YouTube doing a review on a room at the Ritz in Vienna and he gets discounts because he does hotel reviews. They are ...

Seeing a number 1 is the biggest lift I get. It just makes me float with happiness.

People who are always planning and scheming against others must live awful lives.

I don't have revenge in me. I need others to handle what happens to harmful people.

A horn honked twice. I pretended it was you.

"Grief is a much greater pain than arthritis."-Sarah Winchester

I also ordered some apricot oil. I am taking no chances, but I have been getting rather obsessed. Well, it is always nice to try anything th...

I am allergic to shellfish.

I love how you were always there for me physically, behind the scenes and by a spiritual connection. I still feel that. I am forever gratefu...

I would like to experience this place at it's best, with all my extra clutter from my storage unit gone and your face here to see in per...

I canceled my appt. with the surgeon. I will go back after I am on the med for a bit longer and after the PET scan. I always wish my friend ...

I bought a pound of yeast. I am going to get more flour and do some baking. I have a new mixer that has been sitting in the box and it has d...

I would be thrilled to see you as much as I could.

I just know if we can see each other again, we can be of support to each other and also have fun and laugh. I adore your sense of humor and ...

Barring anything unforeseen causing a problem, I will be getting my med today (LDN) and it could be free! I am very excited! It basically ha...

I don't think people who have done wrong to others should go unpunished, but I would defer to the wishes of someone who I trust to make ...

I love it when I can know you are safe and okay.

I read that lipedema is nearly exclusively a woman's disease; so I am thinking a component of a lump could be estrogen and ? Could they ...

I cannot trust any K people because of the absolutely rough and cruel way I was treated by Dr. Moon. It scared the crap out of me. I worry t...

I just feel like the diagnosis is wrong. I guess it is all the strange things that happened, and said, but also because the biopsies were ta...

I am so looking forward to the day I can see you again. I hope you will want to see me too. That's all I care about any longer in my lif...

I need your help.....when it is okay/time. But things don't make sense and you always make sense of things. I need someone who knows abo...

I really don't want to go to K any more than I have to.

I love thinking about you.

I don't like missing you. I want you to be here.

I cannot have surgery w/o the one I trust there, but only after the time is up for any restriction.

You know how I feel about you, that is all I can do. I am nothing much, but I will always be your supporter and refuge, defender, and comfor...

Basically, nothing is in my hands.

https://breastcancernow.org/information-support/have-i-got-breast-cancer/benign-breast-conditions/breast-pain/chest-wall-pain

Please be there for me. I ask nothing else.

I have no idea. Maybe I am okay, maybe not. All I know is that I cannot have anything invasive done w/o someone to observe. I will just have...

I guess I try and make you know who I am, but I underestimate you. You know. I am just falling apart somewhat. I don't know who could go...

I have been through the mill. I am ready to smile.

I basically say what comes to mind.

Be well.

The symptoms just don't seem to indicate BC, but it is hard to fight the influence, but so much doesn't make sense.

It is hard to fathom the cruelty it takes for someone to be so cruel to others.

Watching a Netflix program about 6 couples who are competing to win a home in Alaska. It is interesting to see how they manage in the wilder...

Are you staying okay? I wish I knew how you are doing. All I have are my thoughts and prayers.

I am running out of my supplements and Amazon is delayed. :-(

The breast in question aches. It is scaring me. https://breastcancernow.org/information-support/have-i-got-breast-cancer/benign-breast-cond...

So, when the courts open again, the person who actually did this to me, will have a lot to explain.....Crime doesn't pay! She was trying...

Get free and safe and work it out later.

I never knew it was possible to love someone as much as I love you.

I have been getting every supplement/drug that I have read gets good results with healing one of cancer. I am walking a line between belief ...

Everyone deserves freedom to live the life they want and to have a friend who will help them achieve it, no matter what. I am sure you have ...

A lot of people were pissed off and frustrated that I never lost faith, even though I was tormented and screamed at. Even now, I remain stea...

I am hanging in there to keep him safe, if I can. I keep people apprised. I am concerned about his safety primarily. If no one is going to b...

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I will need you to watch over me, if you would. I only trust you. It is why I love you. I want to do the same for you.

I enjoy thinking about you.

They will have court again when it opens back up. I will have to give my truthful defense.

Being in grief along with dealing with the cruelty and legal travesty for 5 years, has not been easy. Every emotion has flooded through me a...

I don't deserve to feel so bad each day. 5 years of feeling terrible; it isn't right (for anyone). It is a crime, what was done, peo...

I remember ages ago when I had mentioned that I had breast lumps and I was advised to go to my OBgyn, so I did, but it was nothing except mo...